Kariavattom Campus: an Update

Yes!!! The world seems so weird now. Now that I have actually got out of the Campus-the Campus that taught me what amotivation is and the Campus that I simply wanted to run away from. It is like that Campus is pulling me right back-to itself, to the beautiful world of not doing anything and enjoying everything that comes ones’ way. Just waiting for everything to happen in its course; not doing anything on ones’ own; not taking the initiative or the effort to do anything-that’s what I thought the Campus taught me. That’s what I thought-till now, that is…

The moment I got out of that place I missed it. For the same reasons I hated it. For amotivating me, for being idle, for being effortless, for being what it is… I found that the real world is nothing like it is in the campus. Everything just doesn’t come to you. You have to work for it. You have to take the effort. It is a jungle out there. In the real world one cannot afford to be amotivated and idle. In the real world one has to take the initiative, the effort otherwise, that one will be exactly were that one was before. He or she will not move forward neither backward. If one is happy with being where they are now, well and good otherwise, it is really frustrating. It’s usually the latter, because of the most important thing that the campus teaches-‘to move forward, no matter what’.

In the campus I was special. I was the queen of my world. I was important. Well, the campus made me feel all that. It was just me and my campus… “MY Campus”… when it is no more-mine. It never was for that matter. But, now, why do I feel that belongingness that I never felt when I was actually there? Why am I missing it? May be because I found that in the real world I am just one among the others, struggling to be someone, fighting to create my own identity, striving to live… may be because I understand now that life just doesn’t come to you so easily as it did in the campus… may be because I am afraid to go into the real world… or may be because I just loved (even though I kept denying it) the campus…

As they say, ‘you never know the importance of something in your life until you lose it and someone else has it’.